A LITTLE BIT!! It definitely helped a little bit in that she seemed to at least understand what his problems were, which is a big step considering that he doesn't think he really understands what his problems are. He does tend to get "it's fine, you can do whatever you want" from people a lot, which isn't... really satisfying to him because he's like "but it's not fine and I have no idea how to even start figuring out what I want to do??" And then he kind of feels like more of a failure for not knowing how to just... be whatever person he is, which clearly other people seem to think should be simple. But he also doesn't really know how to describe what his issues are, especially because the more he remembers the more he's increasingly reluctant to just lay everything out. So the fact that Beatrice was like "Oh, I see. You need to make a choice and you have these options." and he was like "...Yes that is what I thought too..." was really reassuring! '-' In that at least he's not just manufacturing an incomprehensible issue.
He's still... not really satisfied with the decision he remembers making exactly (to embrace being Raven), but that decision is also not strictly relevant since who Raven is is not strictly relevant to Aather! But the main effect that talking to Beatrice had is that he is more comfortable with embracing facades in general. During his time in Aather he has definitely constructed a certain sense of who he should/needs to be, which has never been very connected in his head to who he thinks he actually is! Though he's always wanted to try to actually be it, he definitely feels like he's just faking it all the time. The main result of talking to Beatrice is that he feels like possibly that it can be okay that it's not who he actually is, that "just keep acting like it" is a valid choice. So for instance like I said to Mitchell below, he is now slightly more comfortable being Tiger's Eye's leader, even though he still doesn't think that's who he "really" is.
In addition to that, just being with Beatrice reminds him that he has made some decisions about what he wants that are definitely actually about him. Beatrice being the main one of those! And he's still happy with that. So maybe he's actually doing better about that than he is in his memories. :B
He still doesn't really... know where he's going with any of that. But yes he's slightly more comfortable in general and definitely with Beatrice in specific than he was before.
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He's still... not really satisfied with the decision he remembers making exactly (to embrace being Raven), but that decision is also not strictly relevant since who Raven is is not strictly relevant to Aather! But the main effect that talking to Beatrice had is that he is more comfortable with embracing facades in general. During his time in Aather he has definitely constructed a certain sense of who he should/needs to be, which has never been very connected in his head to who he thinks he actually is! Though he's always wanted to try to actually be it, he definitely feels like he's just faking it all the time. The main result of talking to Beatrice is that he feels like possibly that it can be okay that it's not who he actually is, that "just keep acting like it" is a valid choice. So for instance like I said to Mitchell below, he is now slightly more comfortable being Tiger's Eye's leader, even though he still doesn't think that's who he "really" is.
In addition to that, just being with Beatrice reminds him that he has made some decisions about what he wants that are definitely actually about him. Beatrice being the main one of those! And he's still happy with that. So maybe he's actually doing better about that than he is in his memories. :B
He still doesn't really... know where he's going with any of that. But yes he's slightly more comfortable in general and definitely with Beatrice in specific than he was before.
DID ANY OF THAT EVEN MAKE ANY SENSE.
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