deadlyfurniture: questioning, drinking (for thirty years)
Mitchell (John Mitchell) ([personal profile] deadlyfurniture) wrote in [personal profile] thinkoutsidethebox 2012-05-18 12:58 pm (UTC)

IT'S COMPLICATED. He's not freaking out over the team not being cohesive but he's sort of... uneasy? Things don't feel as comfortingly stable as they used to. It's sort of like the team before was more stable than he was and could keep him stable, and now the team is still full of people who care about each other and work together and stuff, but it feels more like he has to be one of the stable ones and help the newer teammates, rather than relying on his team to help him instead. But luckily for him he has Jaina to lean on now and a lot of the weight of his memories telling him to lean on his girlfriend for all support ever, so it's not as bad for him as it could be.

But having his teammates rely on him more isn't necessarily a bad thing either even if it's less... comfortable, than being the one to rely on his teammates, and he feels like he has been doing pretty well at being there for Sieh and Naoto in particular. Even though they've had arguments, they've been productive arguments in that he feels like he understands both of them a lot better than he did before, and the issues they were having have actually been resolved rather than just being there in the background. He feels like he's up to the challenge of helping them out and he can do it and it's a good chance to prove himself, so he's pretty optimistic in general. It's just a bit more stressful than it was.

He's also slightly uneasy about the morality of the team changing. He clung VERY STRONGLY onto Dusk and Valiant's self sacrificial values after he got over the initial blow up and he's still clinging pretty strongly to that, with a large helping of "I've hurt enough people in my life so I need to make up for that now with protecting them". But he hasn't needed to think about this too much because the main person in issue is Sieh, and even though Sieh doesn't care about offteam people and would shank offteam people to save himself and the team, there are very, very good and compelling reasons to protect Sieh and not let him get hurt. He's got very good reasons to not want to be hurt and Mitchell wouldn't even begin to want to argue with those. Kitsunebi's a bit different but he hasn't really spoken to him at length about it so it hasn't been a major issue yet.

Reverse!

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