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Leaderfeelingssss okay. Like I have mentioned, Raven has experience with leadership, but does not want to be leader nor does he think of himself as a good one! He has been in positions of authority but not ever really of his own will.
The start of leaderfeelings was the memory he got back recently where a retired knight was like "Schwann had a really human personality. He was a way better leader in terms of personal magnetism than Alexei." Which. Even in the memory he is like "ha ha... ha..." because... Schwann was basically a completely invented persona with made-up credentials! And in the end Raven doesn't think of Schwann as someone he wants to be. He talked to Ferris about it and was like "it's cool, I convinced him he had the wrong guy."
But... on some level, he kind of has to wonder what the real distinction is between "is actually a born leader with lots of personal magnetism" and "can act enough like a born leader with lots of personal magnetism that a very senior knight who's known him for years thinks that's who he is." Especially because Raven has no idea who he "actually" is. And because he was just talking to Beatrice about that, he is now kind of like... well maybe that's okay? So how that carries over is something like... if Ferris and Mitchell tell him he's being the leader and should be the leader, he still doesn't really believe them or feel like he is, but if they believe it enough that it accomplishes what needs to be done, that's fine? He can be that for them.
Because in the end it's just about what Tiger's Eye needs. A lot of the time Tiger's Eye does not need a leader! But obviously sometimes they do, and Raven will do his best to act like one if he can help to pull them together.
The memory he just got back will also solidify things along these lines because it is basically the same sort of thing - the guilds are in disarray, so he's providing direction because it's something that needs to be done. It will also make him slightly more comfortable because it is about guild leadership, which is all negotiation and trying to come to agreements with people when there's no real authority structure, rather than knight leadership, which is obviously more rigid as well as being associated with Schwann (and thus person-he-is-not) pretty heavily in his head.
Mitchell's thoughts on Tiger's Eye in general at the moment!
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Leaderfeelingssss okay. Like I have mentioned, Raven has experience with leadership, but does not want to be leader nor does he think of himself as a good one! He has been in positions of authority but not ever really of his own will.
The start of leaderfeelings was the memory he got back recently where a retired knight was like "Schwann had a really human personality. He was a way better leader in terms of personal magnetism than Alexei." Which. Even in the memory he is like "ha ha... ha..." because... Schwann was basically a completely invented persona with made-up credentials! And in the end Raven doesn't think of Schwann as someone he wants to be. He talked to Ferris about it and was like "it's cool, I convinced him he had the wrong guy."
But... on some level, he kind of has to wonder what the real distinction is between "is actually a born leader with lots of personal magnetism" and "can act enough like a born leader with lots of personal magnetism that a very senior knight who's known him for years thinks that's who he is." Especially because Raven has no idea who he "actually" is. And because he was just talking to Beatrice about that, he is now kind of like... well maybe that's okay? So how that carries over is something like... if Ferris and Mitchell tell him he's being the leader and should be the leader, he still doesn't really believe them or feel like he is, but if they believe it enough that it accomplishes what needs to be done, that's fine? He can be that for them.
Because in the end it's just about what Tiger's Eye needs. A lot of the time Tiger's Eye does not need a leader! But obviously sometimes they do, and Raven will do his best to act like one if he can help to pull them together.
The memory he just got back will also solidify things along these lines because it is basically the same sort of thing - the guilds are in disarray, so he's providing direction because it's something that needs to be done. It will also make him slightly more comfortable because it is about guild leadership, which is all negotiation and trying to come to agreements with people when there's no real authority structure, rather than knight leadership, which is obviously more rigid as well as being associated with Schwann (and thus person-he-is-not) pretty heavily in his head.
Mitchell's thoughts on Tiger's Eye in general at the moment!